The Making of "Bodies Fall Apart"

Lyrics inspired by 2 dreams from 5/13/2020 and 6/22/2020

Music inspired by 3 dreams from 3/9/2018, 11/10/2019, 12/21/2019

Written June 2020

I had ideas to make “Bodies Fall Apart” either rock or electronic-influenced, but I ended up settling on indie/experimental rock. “Touching and mutilating bodies, insane!” was a lyric I came up with all the way back in 2018 that I somehow remembered. “There’s something about the way he moves that made him fall apart” was a dream-lyric that I knew I had to incorporate in some kind of slower ending section. 

The lyrics were inspired by the events of a handful of dreams in which bodies were weirdly morphing. A memorable one was where I found a drawer in my old house that had two dolls realistically modeled after me and my brother when we were very young -- but when I tried to pick up the dolls, they started melting in my hands as if they were made of slime. The lyrics were difficult to write because of how weird it was to convey these dreams through the lyrics. I’m sure they still come across as very cryptic and absurd, despite my several rewrites. 

After making a chaotic demo with no real energy and completely out-of-sync guitar tracks, I used that as a starting point for how to improve for the final version. Being mostly a self-produced song, making the core parts was relatively easy. I finished most of the song in mid-2021, being one of the first things I did for the album. However, the difficult part was the whistling. I asked what seemed like all my friends if they knew how to whistle, and they all either said they couldn’t whistle or just bailed on me/forgot about my request. Finally, in Spring 2022, I found some friends who were eagerly willing to whistle on the spot - three friends, in fact. “Bodies Fall Apart” was, I think, the first song I started recording and the last song I finished recording.